Today we are going to talk about Misty!  Misty is not a person it is actually the name I gave my cancer.  I have no idea why I chose that particular name but that is what I picked.  I decided to name it in order to talk about it in front of my kids.  The little ones especially. I will never forget that day.  I picked up the phone and as soon as I heard this is "Dr. Mulligan" I new it was bad news.  I only remember him saying "unfortunately there is caner".  After that I remember nothing else.  I some how managed to write down a number for a surgeon he wanted me to call.  I have never been so cold in my life as I was after hearing that news.  I was literally shivering.  Freezing cold.  Of course I was home alone with five of my seven kids and I remember falling to the ground and being simply terrified. I called my husband and told him and he came home right away.  I called everyone and just told them to come over.  I just needed to be surrounded with as many people as possible anything to distract me from having to deal with Misty. 
  I get angry when I hear people talk about Thyroid cancer as being the "good" cancer.  There is no such thing as a good cancer.  Even though my cancer is treatable, and i am so thankful to God for that, it is still cancer and trust me all cancer is life changing I do not care how treatable it is.  I at this minute am day by day in how I feel.  Most days I feel awful and I honest to goodness try not to let anyone know how I am feeling.  I am not good about needing and excepting help although I am so grateful for the help I have received during this bump in the road.  The love I have received from people who I didn't expect it from has been awesome.  You also learn who is really there for you too.  I have made some really dear friends throughout this.  People I knew well before but now consider part of my family.  This today has been pretty therapeutic actually because I have not talked about how I felt with anyone. .  But with the people I had around me they really wanted to know.  Some of them have actually been through it themselves.  I know now that you really can not know how something feels unless you have been there.  So I try really hard just to be there for people and not pretend like I know how they feel.  just listen and do what ever I can to help.